Of course I honor my Mom on Mother’s Day…I will never be able to thank her enough for giving me life & all the way through to this very moment.  She has been my biggest cheerleader, greatest friend, and teacher. 

I also want to honor my children…they have given me the amazing priviledge of being a mother…experiencing joy and love I never knew possible. 

I wrote this shortly after my daughter was born…baby #4…the biggest surprise of my life.  I thought it was appropriate as we approach Mother’s Day.  I pray that one day she will be a Mom…that she will know what it feels like to love the way only a Mom can.

“Sometimes I wonder how I find myself in these situations…lying here in this stark, cold room…voices echoing around me.  I am awake, but in this strange place in my consciousness…scared, anxious, excited, hopeful.  I am nauseous from the roller coaster of emotions.  My body shudders.  I close my eyes.  The pressure takes my breath.  Then…in an instant…with one sound, everything is new again.  She cries.  My life is whole.  My daughter emerges into this world.  The stark, cold room glows with the colors of the future.  The sound of her crying warms my soul instantly.  Her tears wash away all of my doubts…there were many.”

Today’s secret revealed…after the twins came along, it took a lot for me to be ‘done’ with having babies.  I always said ‘oh yes, we are done…but I can’t believe I am going to go through life without a daughter’.  I finally found the place of contentment…kind of relieved to be there.  God works in mysterious ways!  I cried for a month (especially at bath time) after we found out we were expecting baby #4.  It is okay to be freaked out when unexpected things happen…but I knew this would be a girl…my daughter…coming to complete our family…to complete me.